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When I got here, they locked me up naked in an empty cell. 

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I screamed until my voice gave out, 

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mooed like a cow, 

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threw soup at the wall, tore up the mattress and wrote ‘Lie’ on the wall with my faeces. 

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What was a lie? 

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Everything. 

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They had driven me so crazy that I believed I had given birth to a rat 

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and I no longer knew who I was. 

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Sometimes the Virgin Mary and sometimes Elvis Presley's wife. 

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I know that feeling.  - What? 

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Sometimes I is very difficult.
 

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I no longer knew up from down, father from mother. 

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Father, anyway, no. 

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My father was suddenly my uncle and my mother was my aunt 

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because I was illegitimate and my mother lived with me in her older sister's family. 

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How did you find out what was right? 

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I was 18. I was lying on the sofa in the living room 

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and Mum and Aunt Ruti were trying to pump soapy water into my uterus 

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because I was pregnant. 

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That's when I heard that Aunt Ruti was my mum and Dad was an uncle by marriage.

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He liked it when I sometimes fumbled around with his trousers.
 

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In the fourth month, I had a miscarriage, 

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and a month and a half later, they brought me here.

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What I sometimes think about, what might be right, 

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is to take a trip occasionally. I like to read travelogues.

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What helped me was a medicine that I came up with myself, 

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consisting of lily oil combined with milk, sugar and gold. 

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It's a very nice medicine, and also a very suitable one. 

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Maybe cinnamon could be added to it.

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As a child, I always loved eating apple rice with cinnamon. 

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However, they never let me eat apple rice with my left hand. 

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I'm left-handed. 

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Are you too? - You are too? 

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No.  - Because you said "you too". 

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I probably wanted to say that I like that about you. 

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It's something that - What?
 
 

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I had something under my beard here. See?

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As a child, I had a cleft lip.

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I would never have noticed. Never. 

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The green shines and the sun shines on it. 

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It's actually good therapy.